Saturday, April 03, 2010

Something just happened.

And if people know about it, they will probably say : 'Huh? Again?'

I seriously have no idea why i keep losing my things.

I seriously think that i am cursed.

Cursed that i will lost all my important things time after time.

Because I deserve it.

Because I have done a lot of bad things.

Sometimes i feel that i'm so stupid that i can just bang the wall and die.

I know is not a serious problem.

But i really feel that my stupidity should deserve to die.

So please not give me anything valuable, because i will lose it eventually.

Every time i loses something, i will hope that some kind soul can return it back to me.

But every time it fails me.

I always used to thought that everyone is a kind soul in this world.

I know is naive for me to think this way.

But I really believe that in every human being in this world.

No matter how bad they are, there will be this good little kindness in them.

Now, one side of me feels like 'Whatever, sure kena taken away for good, expect so much for what?'

Another side of me still wants to continue believe that there will be a kind soul that will return me my things.

But in conclusion: I decided that there aren't any kind soul in the world. (In this aspect only)

Because not once there was evidences to prove my theory.

Never once it happened to me, a kind soul returning my things to me.

Note to self: Reality isn't fairytale at all.

what we could have been, 23:04:00.